Bad, bad, unicorn.

Well, I'm seriously bad at keeping up with anything. I've just been so damn busy. I got fat again and my recent lack of vigorous exercise has ceased my stomach toning so now its just flabby. Ew. I've really got to get serious with this whole fitness and self improvement thing. I was looking in the mirror the other day and out of nowhere I started crying. I hated  my reflection at that point, my skin was so fugly looking to me, my hair was a mess and I refuse to ever look at my body naked again. I hate that I've become that disgusted with myself.

If I'm going to do this modeling thing, I know I've got to get my self esteem up. A good friend of mine told me to just act conceited and like a total bitch. The conceited part may be a bit easier but as far as the total bitch, I dunno. I'm a soft-hearted person, and sort of a pushover. I tend to let people get away with stuff as far as I go. And I need to change that. I WANT to change that.

So here's what my week is looking like. I'm counting today as Saturday night still - even though I am posting at 12:34 AM.

SUNDAY - Beginning clean-out day. Water and more healthy food. Dump the junk.
MONDAY - 1HR30MIN of hardcore fitness, healthy eating and plenty of water. Vitamin intake as well.
TUESDAY - 1HR of hardcore fitness.
WEDNESDAY - 2HR of hardcore fitness. BREAK 2HR of hardcore fitness.
THURSDAY - 30min of yoga.
 FRIDAY - 1HR30MIN of exercise.
SATURDAY - Mild exercise/stretches/yoga.

And this will  be me for the next couple of weeks and I choose and vow to myself to stick to it. I really hope to see improvement in skin and overall health and appearance. So hopefully this can lead me to my next step of self improvement.